11.29.2011

Heartbreak



I'm still in somewhat of a state of shock, but I needed a venue to share our loss and grief. Unexpectedly, our dear girl Miss Betsy passed away last night.  Her health had been wonderful - no signs of any illness, no signs of anything strange ingested.  I got home last night around 5:15 and we went on a walk.  She had some dinner, I had some dinner.  We watched some TV and played a rousing game of fetch. When I left for darts at 6:45pm, she was up on the couch looking at me with her ever beautiful face.  I said "Bye puppy!  Your Dad will be home in a few!  I love you!"  I received a call from my husband shortly after 8pm when he got home.  She was gone.  He came in the house, and there she was in her same spot on the couch, but she didn't jump up when he came in.  He ran to her and there was no response.  I raced home as fast as I could - it was like being in a living nightmare.  

We don't have kids.  We have pets.  Our Betsy brought so much light, joy and happiness into our hearts and home every day.  We have had a stressful year, and I know that Betsy is part of the reason we have been able to make it through as we have.  We are absolutely and totally devastated.  We had her in our lives for 15 months.  Just fifteen months.  And she was only about three years old.  She was taken from us, and the world, too soon.  I know that eventually I will be able to just smile on the memories, but now I am angry and sad and so hurt.  My physical body hurts due to her loss.  We will get through, I know - we have to.  But my heart will never be the same.

Miss Betsy, thank you for being in our lives, even as short as it was.  I love you with all my heart, and I always will.  My little puppy dog, I can't wait to see you one day down the road.  In my last moments, the thought of being able to rejoin you will help ease my own way, I am sure of it. 

Hug your pets and friends and family a little tighter today.  Everything can change in a moment.

 The last pic of my little girl and I together - the day after Thanksgiving.

Last week 





I love you my little pupsy dog.  I love you so much.

10 comments:

Big Daddy Diesel said...

I am so sorry, my thoughts and prayers are with you and Mike, if you need anything, dont hestitate to call

Colleen said...

Oh my goodness... I'm so very sorry!!! My thoughts are with you!!!

Tough Chik said...

I am so sorry to hear about your baby. My 2 kitties and pup are my children and I can only imagine the pain you must be going through. She was very lucky to have such a great short life with a loving family. Take care and you are in my thoughts.
Shannon

Christi said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is devastating. I wish you and Mike the best. Y'all will be in my prayers.

Matthew Smith said...

I am so sorry! That would be the worst thing in the world. You've got some terrific memories that you will always have. I'll be praying for you. Hang in there!

Erika said...

I am so sorry to hear that. It's so hard to lose a pet... Have you ever read the Rainbow Bridge? I know it really helped me when my pets have passed away. :(

Ms Mae said...

How terrible. We have kiddos but our pups came in our lives first and we would be devistated if anythign happened to them! You are in my thoughts.

Ms. Duffy said...

I'm so, so sorry. From your pictures it looks like she had a fantastic, love-filled life and was very happy.

Mrs. B said...

Oh Michelle. I am so very, very sorry for your loss. All pet owners know how hard it is when a dear one passes on, but, add to it the shock of it happening out of the clear blue, well, my heart goes out to you, dear.

Just hold onto the knowledge that you will see her again at The Rainbow Bridge.

Hugs.
Amy

RunKateRun said...

I can't even imagine suddenly losing one of my furbabies. :( I'm so sad for you! *hugs*